WHATEVER YOU SELLING...

I
can’t help but feel SO sad
for them because here they are wielding N’ dealing trying their hardest to get MY sex; and I am NOT getting their sales pitch. First
and foremost they don’t ask if I am in a relationship (I guess that part does NOT matter) and I know that I could
stop them DEAD in their
tracks by mentioning Noel, but this is NOT about him. This simply is me not wanting anything from
them period. I mean even when I was in that place I wasn’t in that place. I
always saw my various sexual escapades as life changing…there was NEVER anything of me that was
invested in those men that I feel shame or desperate about; AND I can’t understand how OR why gay men would feel
satisfied with not being connected to what they really want.

I
feel so ashamed of the GAY community
because we are all about the flesh upon flesh…This EASY SEX is like a drug and every time we take a hit, we
spiral out of control only to be left feeling empty AND alone. When I went through this cycle, I knew why I was
doing it; but today it seems as if MOST gay
men are doing because it can be done. Sex is fun, but it can be SO much more if it is with someone
we can MORE than just sex
with. When are we going to STOP bathing OUR asses in this SH!T and wearing it like some cheap cologne? We F&CK each other like there is a fire sale AND one size fits all…

NO WONDER WE LIVE AS IF IT IS NOT OKAY TO BE GAY…WHEN
ARE WE GOING TO SEE THAT BY F&CKING EACH OTHER, WE ARE ONLY REINFORCING THE
STIGMATIZATION OF THE GAY IDENTITY? I GUESS THE SIMPLE THING TO DO IS TO
CONSIDER WHEN YOU GET HORNY & YOU WANT SOMETHING TO EASE THAT, WE NEED TO
THINK IF WE WANT A SERIES OF MEN THAT ARE GOING LAST ALL OF 5-10 MINUTES OR DO
WE WANT A SERIES OF 5-10 MINUTES WITH JUST ONE PERSON THAT IS ALL OUR OWN?
WHATEVER MOST OF US DECIDE, I KNOW WHICH SIDE OF THE PROBLEM I AM ON, SO AS YOU
GUYS KEEP SELLING I WILL REFUSE BECAUSE I AM STOCKED UP FOR LIFE WITH LOVE
& RESPECT FOR MYSELF…