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Wednesday, August 24, 2016


A Grammy-winning male singer-songwriter has written a poem about his boyfriend, and in 2016, that's still news. 

Frank Ocean released two albums (one of them in the form of a film) and a zine within a 48-hour period, starting Friday. Fans have anticipated his album all year, but the release date kept being pushed back. Boys Don't Cry, Ocean's zine that was sold at pop-up shops throughout the country, features an essay the singer-songwriter penned about his love for cars, a poem called "Boyfriend," and a poem by Kanye West about McDonald's, among other ephemera, photographs, and art. 

Despite the rising visibility of queer singers, its not common to hear a major mainstream artist acknowledge same-sex love in a song or, in Ocean's case, a poem. Most notably, Sam Smith, the out British singer-songwriter, has been criticized for not using male pronouns in his music. Instead the English singer prefers to use gender-neutral pronouns in his songs. 

Ocean first shattered the queer glass ceiling in popular music back in 2012 when he penned a personal essay describing the first time he fell in love. The singer opened up about falling for another man. The R&B singer has been pushing that queer ceiling open since. 

In a thoughtful essay published soon after the Orlando mass shooting, Ocean recounted the first time he heard the word "faggot" used as an insult, by his father. "I was six years old when I heard my dad call our transgender waitress a faggot as he dragged me out a neighborhood diner saying we wouldn’t be served because she was dirty," he wrote. "That was the last afternoon I saw my father and the first time I heard that word, I think, although it wouldn’t shock me if it wasn’t."

In the same essay, Ocean wrote about people hating "us" and wishing "we" didn't exist, including himself as a member of the LGBT community: "Many are annoyed by our wanting to be married like everyone else or use the correct restroom like everyone else. Many don’t see anything wrong with passing down the same old values that send thousands of kids into suicidal depression each year."

In "Boyfriend," he takes the reader back to June 2015 and the monumental Supreme Court marriage equality decision:

i could say that i'm happy
they let me and my boyfriend become married
i could say that i'm happy
but cross my heart i didn't notice
hope to die no never, we voted
me and my boyfriend cast our ballot
every kiss reads like a poem
making wrongs right like a poem

Ocean describes the process of working on his new album Blonde as "romantic" in another essay from Boys Don't Cry. He writes about his obsession with cars and how Raf Simons, a Belgian fashion designer, called it cliché. "Maybe it links to a deep subconscious straight boy fantasy," Ocean writes. "Consciously though, I don't want straight — a little bent is good."
Read the full poem below.

"Boyfriend" by Frank Ocean

my boyfriend drives a lil bucket
when it rain it fills up with rain
my boyfriend he gon pick me up
don't distract him at the wheel
in his lane
he's the only one
my boyfriend he misses me when i'm gone
so he don't forget me
there's a song he sings
calms his nerve, endings
my boyfriend is friendly
and we don't want no problems

i could say that i'm happy
they let me and my boyfriend become married
i could say that i'm happy
but cross my heart i didn't notice
hope to die no never, we voted
me and my boyfriend cast our ballot
every kiss reads like a poem
making wrongs right like a poem

i couldn't say i dream of you
because my dreams are filled with no one
and all is lost
me and my boyfriend we found
we don't hope for beyonds at all
me and my boyfriend spend time
and that's all i'm holding on
this time

we got permission
nothing's above condition
but this ain't a thang
it's a mission
can't join the band so sing along
me and my boyfriend got it going on
sleep with fans and t shirts on
asleep in vans your legs all strewn
across my lap
tan lines where your watch was strapped
you took off to make time

cut your hair
you left it long
i love to stare
there's nothing wrong
and if i die while i'm asleep
i pray to God my boyfriend
keeps my secret


Tuesday, August 23, 2016


When looking for a potential playmate, you may find yourself evaluating his physical assets. After making eye contact, his physique will usually get your attention first and his personality will come in second. You may discover his personality is friendly and warm and revealed in the way he expresses himself. Although you may suppress your initial feelings, desire for physical encounters cannot be ignored. Some guys don’t want to come across as taking inventory of the meat market and thus will meet the first time without any significant physical contact.
Age disparity is notably present in increasing numbers where guys are finding more interest in inter-generational playmates/partners. 

Although sex can be a common denominator, meaningful conversations and activities other than sex can also be very stimulating. If you have not considered age differences in the past, now may be the time to recognize “age is but a number.” Some males agree but others don’t accept anything greater than 5-10 years.

Interest in sports, hunting, fishing, camping, hiking, etc. are common among males of all ages. There should be no age categories that suggest limited interests. Many senior males have enthusiastic interests in physical activities that equal guys many years younger.

Yes, chemistry is a significant component for relationships. If there is significant disagreement between two males, the prospects for an LTR are not great. If compromise is acceptable prospects increase.

How significant is initial eye contact?


A Broadway dancer has admitted to killing his boyfriend on August 19, by strangling him.

Before he gave himself up to police, he posted a series of religious-themed statuses to Facebook.

Marcus Bellamy, 32, was a dancer in New York City, and a graduate of the famous dance and drama school Julliard.

He is facing charges for murder and manslaughter after killing his roommate and possible boyfriend Bernardo Almonte, a 27 year-old freelance IT technician.

Police were alerted to the crime after Bellamy’s neighbour called them. Bellamy himself told the neighbour soon after killing Almonte.

They arrested him at his apartment and say he gave himself up willingly. Another neighbour reports seeing him in the street, apparently praying.

Almonte was strangled to death during an argument, though it has not been reported why they were arguing. Bellamy also bit Almonte’s shoulders during the fight, New York Daily News reports.

Afterwards Bellamy posted a series of cryptic, religious messages to Facebook.

‘Forgive me. I did it because I love you. I love all. I loved him also,’ one reads.

Further posts suggest Belamy may have believed the Rapture was coming: The Second Coming of Christ prophesied in some sects of Christianity.

A video he posted to YouTube shows him thinking out loud about moving to Hollywood. He has appeared as an ensemble dancer in Spider-Man, and the NBC musical drama Smash.


Monday, August 22, 2016


Ever since I turned 30, I’ve taken a new approach to how I live my life. I don’t care about the petty things anymore. I wake up in the morning with a generally positive outlook on my day. I’ve learned to accept the fact that things are never really going to go according to plans. I’ve also learned to be present–exist and rejoice in the here and now. I’ve grown tremendously and made what I consider to be great accomplishments in my life. I feel happy. Not just any happy, but a cool sense of intrinsic happiness! In my moments of weakness a suppressed, recurring question always comes to mind: Why am I Single?!?

Before I really get into how I feel about the subject, I have to shed light up my upbringing and thoughts of my own sexuality. I knew I was gay since I was 4! I distinctly remember coming home trying to explain to my mother that I have a boyfriend. She then tried to explain to me the difference between a guy who is a friend and a lover–and I argued with her. (I swear I feel like I’ve always been an adult trapped in a kids body). I was never picked on, bullied or abused in adolescence–I was just myself. It wasn’t until my teenage years until I became fully aware of what “being gay” was. Whatever I was exposed to–maybe it was the late night episodes of Queer as Folk and other limited LGBT shows I could sneak to watch–or the few gay hormone-driven friends I had met along my journey or the interesting scenes I found myself in while underage clubbing or my early days on hookup/dating sites. Whatever it was–I knew that I was THAT type of gay.

I fashioned myself to be what I had considered to be “husband material”. I was not sexually active until 17, I never did any drugs didn’t drink until mid 20s. I graduated with two degrees in business, and I’m back in school for a third in audio engineering. I’m in the process of buying a multifamily home as a rental property. I'm in shape -always have been (and now its even better due to Cross Fit), I drive around in a Lexus, I have edgy bad boy sense of style, nice hair, white teeth, easy personality but sometimes a jerk–I can cook and if a fight ever breaks out in a bar, I know that I can hold my own! I have everything I would want in a partner, so–WHY AM I STILL SINGLE!?

I have had conversations with one of my close friends about this. He pointed out something for me to digest. He said the type of person I’m looking for is someone just like me–someone I can relate to and be in my same age bracket (plus or minus 5 years). and that list is narrow. NARROW!? Really?? 7 Billion people in the world?? Why are ALL my exes in seemingly happy relationships or move from man to man, and I go by years at a time single? What am I doing wrong??

Have you ever had to deal with this? 

What are your thought?


Frank Ocean has finally delivered a follow-up to the 2012 phenomenon album Channel Orange, a new visual album titled Endless.

The out RNB artist unveiled the new visual album yesterday, an experimental mix of instrumental and vocal tracks.
Featuring an array of musicians, including Radiohead’s Jonny Greenwood, James Blake and the London Contemporary Orchestra, Ocean builds a staircase showing a contemplative and deep style in this new direction.

In line with the new album, Apple has released a series of playlists including The Rise of Frank Ocean, Frank Ocean Samples and Frank Ocean’s Most Shazamed Tracks.

Endless Track List

1. Device Control
2. Alabama
3. U-N-I-T-Y
4. Commes Des Garcons
5. Wither
6. In Here Somewhere
7. At Your Best (You Are Love)
8. Mine
9. Ambience 001: In a Certain Way
10. Ambience 002: Honeybaby
11. Hublots
12. Slide on Me


Sunday, August 21, 2016


"Somebody I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. 

It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift." 

~Mary Oliver


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