I AM...

I am whatever YOU think I am until YOU get to KNOW me. This is true for everyone else too, of course.. so don't make assumptions about anyone or pass judgment; ask questions. You might just make a new friend.


Monday, July 31, 2006


...As I sit; your song fill my soul with love I can't help but love you. You bring back the moment when we first kiss and that takes me to another level. I know now that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, take care of you, walk with you...LOVE you. It's so crazy because I get so nervous about dating an artist that is performing, it makes me all anxious, but this time it was different. I was free and happy, I was tune into him. His words went right through me, touched me from the bottom of my feet to the tip of my forehead; I had chill bumps on my body. The only thing I could do was sit still and allow his song to free me, take me to that place; that place I longed to be for so long. As the love filled me up inside I wanted him to know, I wanted him to see it (not that I had a choice) the tears where there. I couldn't believe it, it was so strange; something that I had never felt before. My heart belongs to him, I am living the dream and I am not afraid. So many songs come to mind and I know I am no singer so I thought I'd give him the gift of my words and show him how he makes me feel...
Beautifulblkboi (I CELEBRATE YOU!) for Travis For the aroma of your aura…
That ignites my soul,
For the strength & character you posses…
That gives me courage,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the heart of humility that touches my heart…
That says you are indeed the apple of my eye,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the beauty that you distribute…
That graces me with warmth,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the majestic melody of your love…
That touches my yearning spirit,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the angelic sound of your voice…
That flows right through me,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the sparkle that glistens when you smile…
That lights up my life,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For your sweet elixirs that intoxicate me…
That I can never get enough of,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the joker in you & laughter that you share…
That makes me laugh ever so heartily,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the power you hold in your hands…
That shows me your GOD potential,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the vision you hold in your heart…
That gives me someone to walk life’s path with,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the wisdom you hold in your spirit…
That comes from living many life times,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the Sexiness you hold in your walk…
That always gets me going,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the bitch you embody…
That makes me know we are kindred spirits,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For your beautifulblk skin…
That tells your life story,
I CELEBRATE YOU! For the gay man in you…
That says you know your purpose
I CELEBRATE YOU! For being my perfect imperfection…
That says you were made just for me,

Sunday, July 30, 2006


When you've trusted God and walked his way,

When you've felt His Hand lead you day by day,

But your steps now take you another way--START OVER.

When you've made your plans and they've gone awry,

When you've tried your best and there's no more try,

When you've failed yourself and you don't know why--START OVER.

When you've told your friends what you plan to do,

When you've trusted them and they didn't come through,

And now you're all alone and it's up to you--START OVER.

When you think you're finished and want to quit,

When you've bottomed out in life's deepest pit,

When you've tried and tried to get out of it--START OVER.

When the year has been long and successes few,

When December comes and you're feeling blue,

God Gives a January just for you--START OVER.


Saturday, July 29, 2006


If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it
Just for you
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own
A place to find serenity
A place to be alone
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea
But all these things
I'm finding are impossible for me
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be
A friend
That's always there...
for those that don't have a friend...

Friday, July 28, 2006


the warrior comes in all men
how strong is to his will to walk hard
and to stand without fear to breath another day
its not the days in number to matter
but the fact of the days you were the greatest battle is to be taken
as any to fall is to live in freedom
but to back down from the challenge to see the next days sun
is to ask for mercy
proudly stand to that final blow
rage with every last bit of fight left
for you will not be layed down
but rather knocked from your feet one worth you at cost.
take wise to show courage
regret be far from me
fullfillment comes in that last sweeet taste
that's whats matters
going with a smile a man is a legend
faults of no concern and the true test starts.
the people will place me to their shoulders
as I stretch my sword above victory is my humble heart!

Thursday, July 27, 2006


Nobody seems to likes homosexuals…it’s always open season on the same sex prone crowd. They consider our ‘UNIQUENESS’ strange, our language foreign. Our confidence is seen as ignorant; laughing at our heart’s defeat because we are living a life that isn’t meant to be. We are living an accidental existence whose intelligence is down graded. We make them question things they can’t understand about themselves which they can’t internalize because it’s too scary in there. Pride for our sexuality makes us ‘TOO GAY’ yet; we can only be what we are meant to be. And, who are we you might ask? We are that STRONG HUMAN BEING who stands tall, with an erect spine pointing to the stars. We are here to show the world that not only do we possess the ability to play by the rules; we can make them as well.
I was five years old when I knew I liked boys; it was so comforting, so easy, so pure…so right. I liked playing cowboys n’ Indians with my best friends so naturally I was the Indian and naturally I will always allow myself to be captured knowing that I will have my hands placed firmly behind my back with my best friend breathing heavily on my neck with his penis placed right on my ass. Oh God how I loved that feeling! Growing up I was always told that I was be killed if I turned out to be gay. I smile at that notion now because I know that I didn’t turn out to be gay, gay is who I am, gay is who I am meant to be, gay is who I choose to be.
Do you think that they realize that there’s such a strong archetype for a MAN that is gay? How could it not? Think about it…It's that hidden self, that secret self, that part of his being that isn’t defined by secrets or sexuality…But by the heart. We are those ‘SPECIAL’ persons that know about dealing with the internal and the external whether we want to or not; we have no other choice. We know that we soothe the spirit of turmoil and purge the crippleness of self-hatred. We have to puke out the mess for all to see and destroy the very human need to classify and label. We are naturally this way because when you are outcast it brings closer to God; we walk the path that Jesus walked. We are praised as long as we don’t claim who we truly are and literally crucified when we make our GAY PROCLAMATION!
I am a man first and a homosexual second, I am not defined by who I exercise my right to copulate with; the rest of the world don’t so why should I? As a same gender loving man, I am oppressed. As a man, I have been shunned, abused and rendered invisible for being same sex prone. From the cradle I was made to understand…From society at large and too frequently, my own family that the man I am wrong and unacceptable. This is relentless denial of our humanity, our GOD POTENTIAL and right we have to live a life we so wish. If we are made in GOD’S image why would we have retreated from large portions of ourselves? So, we won’t internalize this supposing christian model of experience that made us see ‘homophobia’ as ‘right.’ We won’t internalize this culture’s homophobia and ignorance that tries to make us believe that we are invalid. How can you make me hate myself for tapping into my female energies? It took both a MAN & WOMAN to create me so naturally I will find my balance.
We should rejoice in being the people that we are. We are the honorable image of mankind…The defiant ones, the ones that refuse to be anything other than what is natural to us. We are the root, stability and resilience of the whole being. There is value placed on use that makes those that can’t deal with themselves feel like they are the strange ones. So naturally it makes sense to make us look like we are not what life is suppose to be about. Even though we are classified as the epitome of God’s abomination; we are not going away. Our uniqueness as same gender loving group of persons makes us the WITCHES & GATE-KEEPERS to the next world.
We are the world’s rebirth; we carry with us the sense of hope and renewal. We are the sun the start of each new day, we are that first sliver of dawn paints the horizon, gradually spreading our color. We illuminate the world, inspiring birds to song and the change of each season. I am afraid because if we are not embraced before we fade life itself will be lost, we are the homage to temporary-permanence…We are going to be the LAST GROUP OF PEOPLE STANDING. We are surrounded by deep water and the world is trying to drown us. But we refuse to give up and we will keep our head above water; our purpose on this planet is too important.
So as you try make us bargain with God, asking him to change things that we cannot, asking him to destroy what we agreed to before entering this planet, asking him not to try us for another day…We know better, we know that life isn’t only what happens here but what occurs after…So as we beg and plead for just one more stay, God listens to us as we cry out in pain and confusion. He reassures us that there exist restrictions to a force, that even the most powerful may apply without destroying themselves and judging this limit is the true artistry of your humanity. Misuse of power is the fatal sin and our sexual identity cannot be a tool of vengeance, nor a fortification against the martyr it has created. This is our story; we have to fulfill our destiny! We have to substitute our pain and confusion with self love, for our sexual identity are all apart of the journey to find “HIM.” WE ARE THE NEXT STEP IN THE CHAIN OF EVOLUTION, WE ARE THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIGHT!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006


Guess I pose a threat to the social order,
The gender police have to intervene.
Guess I have crossed the line separates that ‘MAN’ from ‘WOMAN’,
I don’t see myself as a husband with a wife.
Guess I am a man trying to be a woman,
But I lack the proper plumbing.
Guess I am a man that will never know the love of a good woman,
The most obvious source of love and gratification?
Guess I am trying the impossible,
Solving the problem with only half the pieces.
Guess there is no possibility of satisfaction,
The formula is all wrong…one penis plus one penis equals…?
Guess I am not into ‘VANILLA SEX’
Pussy ain’t all the rage!
Guess I realize that ‘GOD’ must have intended for me to FUCK men,
Because there wouldn’t be a tremendous capacity for anal orgasms.
Guess I know that ‘YOU’ wanna be FUCKED by a man,
But without feeling less of a man.
Guess I am a living recluse,
Ah well, that doesn’t relief my aching for love.
Guess I am the worst thing a ‘MAN’ could be,
I will have the time of life being that.
Guess I am done trying to change the world, or to fit in it,
It has already changed me.
Guess I know you swim in a sea of lies everyday,
When men lay with each other in desire…GOD’s truth is revealed
Guess I should overcome the stigma embedded in me as ‘GAY YOUNG MAN’,
Funny how I don’t care bout being…

Tuesday, July 25, 2006


I realize he is a man that is BEAUTIFUL!
A man that I will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
The man whose forehead and eyes I will always kiss.
He is the one I want to constantly remind how much I care…
The one I am lucky to have…
When I met him, he told me 'I have found what I have been looking for.' I was shocked and thinking that this guy was crazy until he KISSED ME! GOD'S TRUTH WAS REVEALED, HE IS THE REASON I AM GAY; THE REASON I LIVE. I now know that we didn't meet by chance it was ordained by the hands of GOD. It’s like he found me somewhere on his road, seems I will be driving by. I remember clearly how you looked the night we met, I recall your laughter and your smile. I remember how you made me feel so at ease, I remember all your grace and your style. And now you're all I long to see, you've come to mean so much to me. I know that he will be somewhere in my dreams, smiling like the night we met.
I trust him,
I love the non-sexual intimacy,
I can give him space to grow without feeling insecure...
I want to give him a sense of belonging...
I want to give him re-assurances of LOVE
He I know I will constantly dream about and I am now consume with thoughts of love…I can close my eyes visualize his touch, the warmth of his skin on my skin....He is that special someone that leaves a smile on my face that can't seem to go away because of the thoughts of his strong embrace. He is the kind of man that provides a shoulder to catch my falling tears and acts as my protector for when times get rough…

Monday, July 24, 2006


You’re in me and I’m in you
You’re the reason I am
I see us as a collection of individual parts,
Like little mental snapshots
I look at us in the mirror
Becoming part of our energy field,
Part of our self-definition.
I can change others' view of us,
By shifting the ideal images I hold of us.
Like a child
I look at the world through fresh eyes,
Seeing, taking it all in, but not judging.
As I grow and learn about our world,
I develop our own associations.
I absorb the notions of our beauty,
Held by the culture in which I are raised
I internalize the remarks of parents,
Friends and even strangers.
All of these elements color our view of ourselves.
Showing me the purpose for living life is not within me,
But within us…
Making us realize that we are who we pretend to be…
We have met the enemy and he is us!

Sunday, July 23, 2006


Take A Little Time
Take a little time my child,
Stay right here with me.
Take a little time my child,
The hasty often can't see.
Take a little time my child,
And you will have all that you need.
Take a little time my child,
And wait for the fruit of your seed.
Take a little time my child,
And let me be your guide.
Take a little time my child,
And under my wings you can hide.
For I am the Essence of Time,
I am never early, never late.
So listen to me,
the Essence of Time,
And do not be afraid to wait.

Saturday, July 22, 2006


There is no greater way to escape the troubles of daily life than HIS LOVE BOX. Like a baby wrapped in a warm blank-e, I feel held and safe in clutches of his soul, cloaked within a curtain of HIS LOVE BOX. Here I can breathe more freely and think more clearly, our hearts and souls feeding on each other as we float above the everyday world. This is my HEAVEN where I can fully experience GOD and be who I am. I shed the masks required by the world and reveal my most hidden secrets, dreams, and desires. It is as if I have ascended into the heavens and is seated @ the right hand of GOD. This energy revitalizes me, relaxes me...FEEDS ME NEW LIFE! I can descend, ready to enter the world again, cleaner, clearer and often more inspired.

Friday, July 21, 2006


What if God...
What if God knew that I am gay?
Would he turn me away?
Would he walk me down the forgotten street?
Where old glass fragments under my feet.
Would HE have show me hate?
I wouldn’t ask,
Cuz’ I know it’s my fate.
I know that the light’ of hope is no longer there
All my morals have gone to hell
Why oh why this my story to tell?
Death and fear go hand in hand
Stripping me from the land
What lies down the road ahead?
Turmoil, my eternal bed…
Dirt, six feet underground.
Want to end it all and be
Over with no longer me
What if GOD…
Religious Dogma and Doctrines were made to control and subdue the masses. If religions are supposed to be unifying, how is it that Sunday is the most segregated time in this country. We are taught that God is an angry God. God is something up in the sky sitting on a throne and hell is place of fire and brimstone. Hell is a life in stagnation; cold, lonely and lifeless. Demons are those of us who participate in error/negative thinking allowing it to dictate our life. I am a being of Spirit manifested in flesh. I was here before the foundation of the world; God is within ME!
I am a child of God, a bright, shining and wondrous light. God expresses himself as me for I am made in his image and likeness. I am made to believe that unless I accept what they think is this spirituality I will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Yet, all spiritual paths lead to God. If God created me and God is love and I am created in God's likeness and image, it is therefore safe to say LOVE is what I am. My true spiritual nature connects me directly with God. I am God in expression and extension of all God is. I am so important to God that the universe would be incomplete without me. I have a beginners mind ever seeking fulfillment; my spiritual cup runs over and coats me completely. Living Life to its fullest is a healthy Spirituality.

Thursday, July 20, 2006


Love heals &; protects me. I allow love into my life and I am safe and secure.
In my mind's eye I see myself wrapped in a soft blanket of God's loving energy. I feel my mind and body relax as I allow this loving energy to comfort, heal, and protect me. I see myself going through my day with confidence. I imagine myself acting and responding from a place of inner peace. I feel safe and secure in my world. In my mind's eye, I see myself and others experiencing the healing power of God's love. As I quietly exhale, I combine these images with joy and let them go, knowing that they will create the good things I am visualizing and thinking.
Thank you,
T. L. C.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006


Some folks ride the train of life Looking out the rear,
Watching miles of life roll by,
And marking every year.
They sit in sad remembrance,
Of wasted days gone by,
And curse their life for what it was,
And hang their head and cry.
But don't concern yourself with that,
Take a different vent,
Look forward to what life holds,
And not what has been spent.
So strap yourself to the engine,
As securely as you can be,
I want you to be out on the front,
To see what you can see.
Feel the winds of change,
Blowing in your face,
See what life unfolds,
As you move from place to place.
I want you to see what's coming up,
Not looking at the past,
Life's too short for yesterdays,
It moves along too fast.
So if the ride gets bumpy,
While you are looking back,
Go up front, and you may find,
Your life has jumped the track.
It's all right to remember,
That's part of history,
But up front's where it's happening,
There's so much mystery.
The enjoyment of living,
Is not where we have been,
It's looking ever forward,
To another year and ten.
It's searching all the byways,
Never should you refrain,
For if you want to live your life,
You gotta drive the train.
for T. L. C.

Sunday, July 16, 2006


Dear God, can I please have a man of my own…Let him be handsome, smart, aggressive and jovial. Let him be giving, free-spirited, loving and honest. Let him love me ‘DEEPLY’ & ‘COMPLETELY’ but most of all let him be a man of my ‘OWN’…In Jesus name…AMEN!

He …the Adam to my Steve

He… the reason our souls are entwined

He…is like yin is to yang.

He…the essence of man

He…the compeller of my soul

He… the real, positive, enduring value that life offers

He…knows what I am thinking,

He…knows how to cheer me up,

He…makes life perfect.

He…nestles near my heart

He…lets go of my disguise

He…the center of my universe

need I say more?

Saturday, July 15, 2006

U & ME...

The connection between you and me is amazing

But can that bond paint pictures on the canvas of my mind

Painting images never seen before

A life we can explore

Us moving forward

Following footsteps I left in the sand

We will find ourselves in the promise land

Let my mind take you on this ride

That gives you a motivational high

That maybe will inspire you to exceed

And be more than you thought you could be.

Looking into my eyes will allow you to rise

From your deep set self reflection

Look closely you can see me in your reflection

Reflecting what we know is true

Like the undeniable connection between my soul and yours,

The key to so many doors…

for the MAN GOD has made 4 me

Thursday, July 13, 2006


If you look in the mirror and view your profile from each side, you may notice that the two sides of your face are slightly different from one another.Additionally, your left hand is similar to but different from your right hand.In fact, these subtle differences pervade both sides of your entire body.Considering these differences in the context of the idea that the right side of your body is masculine and the left side feminine may shed some light on how balanced you are in relation to your masculine and feminine qualities. Intuition, feelings, openness, and unselfishness govern the feminine side of our natures. The masculine side is characterized by logic, facts, systems, and self-interest. If you are giving too much to others to the detriment of yourself, your feminine side may be overactive and your right side may need strengthening, to speak up on your behalf, protecting and conserving your energy. If your life is too rigidly structured, your masculine aspect may be overactive; developing your feminine aspect will bring a more open-ended and creative approach. Maintaining harmony between the left side and the right side, the feminine and masculine, is a key to wholeness. We can foster awareness of our own relative state of balance by tuning in to our bodies. When you close your eyes and scan your body, what do you see? You may find that most of your ailments, from acne to muscle tension, occur on the left side of your body. This might indicate that your feminine aspect is out of balance in some way. Similarly, if you notice a lot of tension in your right shoulder, perhaps your masculine side is overtaxed or weakened. Just noticing an imbalance is the beginning of healing it. Some imbalances may be long-standing, and it may take time to bring your system into equilibrium. Remember to be gentle with yourself and listen to your body. Overtime, doing this can guide you to a dynamic state of inner and outer balance.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006


I WANT U 2...

Stop making life so difficult and complicated by being afraid to fully live it. Start spending more time as the person you truly are. Stop building elaborate scenarios in your mind about what might or might not happen. Start giving your focus and energy to making the most of the moment you're in. Stop wishing that things had been different. Start seeing the real, positive value and experience you've gained from where you've been. Stop being so obsessed by the things you don't have and constantly distracted by your desire for more. Start to fully appreciate your blessings and to enjoy the true abundance of always having enough. Stop worrying and fretting over what others may think. Start confidently offering your own special values, gifts and perspectives to life. Stop wasting your time wondering about what could have been. And start to discover for yourself the incredible wonders of what can be. Start working on Yourselves; spiritually mentally and physically. Do it because we want to improve ourselves. If we succeed in making yourself happy the mate we seek will naturally be attracted to you. How in the world can we make someone else happy if we are not happy with our situation in life? Find things that can enrich your life. Join a book club, go bike riding or roller-skating, take a trip, go to a ball game, etc...Stop rushing into momentary lapses of physical satisfaction. Damn how many times am I gonna say this? "Everything that looks good ain't good for ya". Stop having sex with someone we meet in the first night or even within the first week. Take the time to find out about the person character and mindset. A lot of time we will see that they are not worthy of our love or attention. We may find out that the person's ego is so ugly it destroys the total package.Open up our mind to new experiences. We are more prone to go to a club than to go to a workshop on safer sex or relationship building. Stop limiting ourselves to sexuality. We don't have to stop doing everything we did before we accepted our sexuality.We must not live our lives through our sexuality. We should let our sexuality be a part of our life and ourselves. There is more to life than a fine body, big dick or tight ass. As soon as we think we are the best there is always something better to take our place. RESPECT one another's personal space, feeling and person. When the disrespect sets in, it's time to pack the bags and move on. Our individual well being is the most important aspect to a healthy and strong relationship. We cannot give love if we are always in a state of fear. We must allow our mate to have their personal time alone and with their friends. When our mates go away they come back with a wealth of conversation through the growth they experience in their other relationships. If we are always together it limits the conversation but when our partners are allowed to freely express themselves they come back with so much more to share with you freely from their own life and experiences. It helps to build trust and sustain a lasting relationship. Let go of the past hurt, pain and self-destructive behaviors. We get so comfortable in known pain that we fear unknown pleasure. We walk around telling everyone our sob story till nobody wants to deal with us. Yes, it happened. Yes, our hearts were broken but we cannot allow a past experience to put F.E.A.R. (False Experiences Appearing Real) to dictate the rest of our love lives. By judging men based on what happened in the past, gives power to the person we perceived to have hurt us and thereby they still control our lives even though they are not in it. First YOU must look at your behavior; Am I attracting a different man to play the same role? Am I repeating a behavior to coax a man to participate in a category because I have decided, "all men are this way"? Second YOU must look to see what you are doing to continue the "drama" Am I still going to the same hangout where I met this "type" of guy? Am I judging him based on what my "ex" did to me expecting and leading him to do just what I expect? Third YOU must take a look at what you want and are you ready for it; Am I ready for love? Am I healing my heart? What is it I seek in myself that will be reflected by a potential mate? Past Transgression are the biggest blockers to experiencing true love. Don't let love pass you by because of an illusion of perceived hurt.

Monday, July 10, 2006


As we celebrated our nation’s Independence today, I believe that we as Bahamians should also take this midyear point to look towards the future and focus on how the many choices and decisions we make today will affect our nation tomorrow.

The sad thing about our country is that most Bahamians aren’t aware of the tremendous challenges that confront our nation on the world stage. Yet many challenges exist here at home that we must work to solve today to protect future generations of Bahamians. We have a government that don’t respect the people they serve; everyday making decisions that impact our very lives.

We have our various religious leaders making decisions that forms or shape our lives every single day. These ‘DEMI-GODS’ stand on their pulpits and hand out critism and hate every Sunday and its sickening. How can a MAN of God live his life as if he is above and beyond the realms of society; I was told about a time when our religious leaders lived in the same community as the people they serve. Now Miles Munroe and Neil Ellis and the like live a life of luxury that takes them out into the areas that intimidate the average Bahamian, these men keep our society down and broken.

In addition, the entrance of undocumented immigrants into this country is a severe threat to our economic well being and our security. I myself don’t have a problem with the persons that come here illegally because if we are going to be a nation that grows we can’t do it with Bahamians alone. The illegal persons here makes me reflect upon the land in which I live; I have freedom, my economy is doing good and the racial issues that exist here aren’t that detrimental to my health.

In this great nation, will be unable to compete in the global economy if it believes 'D+' is an acceptable passing grade for the BGCSE. I feel that we need to adopt the No Child Left Behind Act, for I believe that we need a tougher curriculum and standards for the country's survival. I hope that the Government takes a long and hard look at our deteriorating social infrastructure. Our schools are in a dire state, and our ability to offer persons that go abroad to seek higher education a job that reflects what they achieve cannot be matched.

Isn’t it funny that we as a people cannot and will not be able to sustain our very existence? Think about it; food is essential for life, without it we will expire. Hence I propose that the Government could and should do so much more than it is doing for the self-preservation of our nation and recognize the opportunity to create the conditions in which optimal health-personal, environmental, social, and economic condition can be achieved through a comprehensive food policy ensuring our self resilience. People often think of self-sufficiency as moving to another country and giving up everything worth living for, but that's not what I am presenting here. We live in the commercial Mecca of the Bahamas and the hobby farm idea does not suit us well, instead a smaller version that provides moderate self-sufficiency is more suitable. While the ultimate goal is to become totally self reliant, part of the way is better than none. However, in The Bahamas, very limited efforts have been made in the post-Independent era, by administration or research agencies to investigate the application and impact of both indigenous and modern science-based technological knowledge on the country’s farming system. This can only hurt us as a nation and place us in a situation that offers no relief.

In The Bahamas, the growth of Tourism and Financial Services has had very tiny effects on the development of manufacturing industry. The country has not capitalised on the vast potential for agro-industrial development, and the range of processed products is limited both in terms of product variety and in the level of processing. As a consequence, there are few linkages, even embryonic, between the sectors of the Bahamian economy coupled with a weak technological capability and a serious lack of technological infrastructure and diversification in production. The inevitable result is an imbalance between the low levels of exports and the high levels of imports (as well as between national savings and domestic investment spending) and, hence, the external deficit or the balance-of-payments constraint has been a serious problem. This shows, once again, the development problem and limitations associated with the mono-sectorial structure of the Bahamian economy.

The Bahamian economy exhibits all of the characteristics of a Caribbean-type economy. The country’s reliance on foreign economic activity and foreign exchange has created a state of weak domestic economic capability which in fact deepens the vulnerability of the Bahamian economy. Indeed, The Bahamas has become heavily dependent on Tourism and financial activities, which have, on the one hand, led to a significant increase in the level of National Income and provided jobs to a sizable proportion of the labor force; but, on the other, brought about a lack of stability in [both] employment and national income levels, especially during the last two decades or so. However, openness and vulnerability impinge on the economy’s ability to be ‘self-sustaining’ in its growth pattern. In The Bahamas, the growth of Tourism and Financial Services has had very negligible effects on the development of manufacturing industry. The country has not capitalized on the vast potential for agro-industrial development, and the range of processed products is limited both in terms of product variety and in the level of processing. As a consequence, there are few linkages, even embryonic, between the sectors of the Bahamian economy coupled with a weak technological capability and a serious lack of technological infrastructure and diversification in production. The inevitable result is an imbalance between the low levels of exports and the high levels of imports (as well as between national savings and domestic investment spending) and, hence, the external deficit or the balance-of-payments constraint has been a serious problem. This shows, once again, the development problem and limitations associated with the mono-sectorial structure of the Bahamian economy.

Independence Day is an opportunity to reflect upon all that we have to be thankful for as Bahamians. Our freedoms and liberties inspired by the Declaration of Independence have stood the test of time for 33 years. But it’s also a good occasion to plan for the future, and it certainly doesn’t hurt to focus our sights on all that we must overcome in order to keep our country moving forward on a prosperous path. It’s time that this Administration lead our country forward and not back away from tackling the very real challenges that lie ahead, to me, there would be nothing more patriotic.

The Bahamian economy has for many decades had foreign ownership and control over its key economic sectors, Tourism and Financial Services, and is heavily dependent on foreign private investment, skills and technological innovation. This dependence is accompanied by high levels of imports, not only for capital and intermediate goods but also for the most elementary and simple consumer goods, including food (i.e. the importation of the consumption patterns of the affluent North American societies). Devising the necessary measures to nurture and promote vibrant Bahamian economy will ensure a greater and better use of existing resources –along with the further development of Tourism and Financial Services- seems to be a more sensible way to confront the future. Such an approach seems, certainly, a better option for the endogenous development and competency of the Bahamian economy, than a frantic search for accelerated ‘Western-style’ modernization –a ‘vision’ that decision and policy-makers in The Bahamas aspire to. The alternative and more realistic development paradigm, already discussed, would require the pursuit of Developmental State policies. This is what the Bahamian economy needs.

Sunday, July 9, 2006


Stay true to your inner self, and do some real soul searching to find out who that really is. As we grow older, many things that we used to do just aren't appropriate anymore. It's just a part of life and accepting it will make life easier. Hold on for what you want in life and remember that much of what is expressed is not just about yourself but your reaction to others. YOU are the only person YOU can control. People may disappoint you. Just know who YOU are and what YOU want. It's all about YOU babe...

Look at the past experiences as memories and also lessons. You walked away from those scenarios over the last 20 years with your life. Now that you have that much don't let sadness and other people's inability to see you for who you are weaken that. Remember that we can use our past and current situations to better ourselves. But, to some degree we all have this struggle because we don't know for certain what the future holds. Our inability to accept situations without strife makes that situation harder. We all have disappointments in careers, finances, relationships and on and on, but always stay true to yourself and if you are not content doing the same ol same ol, then try doing what you really want. It may take time. Time to change you attitude and send out the vibe that you're trying to attract. Be good to yourself!

Saturday, July 8, 2006


Every moment of every day, you are making choices that either support your well-being or negate it. Angry, judgmental thoughts cause negative feelings that create a low vibration. The law of attraction responds to your vibration. You can know what you are attracting into your life by how you feel. How you feel is your point of attraction, and what you are getting is always a vibrational match. It all begins with what you choose to focus your attention on. Shifting your focus from a negative thought to an uplifting, joyous thought will raise your vibration instantly and if you stay there for just a short while, you are now attracting from your Source Energy. From that place, you can attract joy, love, peace, prosperity, health and success. The joy of life is in knowing that you are in alignment with your highest good on every level of experience. We came forth to this physical plane to enjoy expressing our creativity, to take thought beyond where it has gone before, and to experience health, wealth and perfect self-_expression. As long as we think that outer circumstances are responsible for our unhappiness or our lack of money or our health, we have given our power over to that person, organization or thing to control us. The truth is, all creation comes from within, no one and no thing has the ability to create for us. Creation comes about through vibrational alignment. If we believe that there are limited resources, then we will fear not getting our share and we will live in lack. If we believe that ill health is unavoidable, then we will draw to us an experience of sickness. If we look at our past as evidence of our potential, then we will continue to do the same things, think the same thoughts and have the same outcomes.
Conversely, we have the option to transcend our past and thrive in the future by making different choices, up leveling our preferences, releasing resistance and viewing the world as a friendly environment for love, joy and peace. We can overcome illness by realizing that every cell has intelligence and will respond to our positive thoughts of wellness, wholeness and perfect health. If a diagnosis has taken us into despair, it is more difficult to hold a high vibrational thought. Just start where you are and begin to lift your thought energy by appreciating the parts of your body that are well.
Hold onto those thoughts until you can feel the difference in your energy. Turning this illness into wellness will depend on how long you have lived with the fear of this illness, how much you believe what others have said to you about the illness and how much you truly want to be well. In some cases we want illness, as it causes others to give us lots of attention and takes responsibility away from us.
When you decide you want to be responsible for your life, the universal forces all around you will respond with inspired guidance. You will feel the difference, the fear will be gone and you will âcknowledge that all is well. You can relax into that knowing and allow your Source Energy to work on your behalf. We do not do the work alone; we are co-creators with the intelligence of the universe. Make a choice for wellness. This choice will lift your vibration, which aligns you with well being. Underlying every illness is a mental and emotional cause. Eating the right foods and exercising is very important to good physical health, but even that will not overcome long held resentments, guilt or shame. Those lower vibrations are destructive currents of energy that attract illness. Let go of any resentment about self or another, forgive any pain or suffering from the past. This opens your heart to healing. Love and appreciate your body when it is well. Talk to your cells as they respond to the energy behind your thoughts. We are in charge of our physical health, not the doctor or the medication. They are there to relieve the symptoms while we align ourselves with the healing. Clear anything unlike love that is still in your consciousness. This is a critical step toward healing. We cannot raise our vibration until we clean out all anger, judgment, resentment, un-forgiveness and guilt. It is your choice to let go of past hurts and get on with life. Everything that has ever happened to you has brought you to where you are today. Give thanks for your current awareness, and know that this is the first day of the rest of your life. You are too important to allow old negative feelings to control your life.

Friday, July 7, 2006


There is little boy I know that can’t seem to get enough sex. His life’s purpose is to get that next NUTT and the funny thing about him is that he hates being GAY. He can’t seem to stay away from that which is so unholy, that which makes him an outsider, even worse he is trying to find his place in that lifestyle seeking GOD knows what…So desperately wanting to fit in…I feel that he is disconnected during sex, its all about the MOTION & not the EMOTION! He is abusing the gift GOD gave to him; he is desperately seeking LOVE but looking for it in the wrong place. FOR HIM SEX IS ALL ABOUT THE EXCITEMENT & PLEASURE…HENCE HE HAS TO HAVE IT MORE THAT THE AVERAGE PERSON TO ATTAIN FULFILLMENT. Do you think he knows that God decided in Heaven one day that he should be born? He chose his parents, made sure that elements were in place to create a MAN as special as HE. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT! He doesn’t realize that there's no one on earth exactly like him, he is a miracle of life, but he has lost sight of the beauty he has. He has forgotten that he start out our lives with the world in his hands. He is now blinded by the lack of love in his life, he is numb, it’s as if he doesn’t have any hope left and he can’t see the future…HE JUST SEES THE END! I know he feels so unworthy and don't know why, I just wish that he would search for answers. Find someone that doesn’t just want sex, someone who will listen- to whom he can shout: I FEEL DISCONNECTED, SAD & UNSURE. I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! I know deep inside that there's got to be hope, but right now I just feel at the end of my rope. His actions say help me find the answer. Help me find my way. Plant my feet on the road of happiness today. He needs to believe that he is worth more than this-and climb out of his dark abyss. But, first he MUST learn how to love self and believe as I do that you're a bright, shining star. I wonder if he wonders if anyone is happier because he passed their way. Does anyone remember that you FUCKED them today? He must know that whatever his hand touches…he leaves fingerprints! On lips, on the nipples, toes, fingers, dick and ass leaving his identity behind. Oh GOD please where ever he goes today, help him leave heart prints! Heart prints of compassion of understanding and love. This is The Story Of his Life…Just wish he’d stop saying that he isn’t important, because it simply isn't true, the fact that he was born, is proof, GOD has a plan for him. The path may seem unclear right now, but one day you will see, that all that came before, was not who you really were. God wrote the book that is your life, that’s all you need to know. Each day that you are living, was written long ago. God only writes best sellers, so be proud of who you are, your character is important...HELL in this book you are the STAR. Enjoy the novel as it reads, it will stand throughout the ages, savor each chapter as you go, taking time to turn the pages…
for A. L. F.

Thursday, July 6, 2006


Every person that passes through our lives makes a contribution to our life stories. There are those who play large roles and make deep impressions, but sometimes a brief special appearance before life takes them in another direction creates a meaningful connection. It is a rare gift when they suddenly reappearing our lives after a long absence. Though the world may seem full of more people than we could ever know, we are often drawn to people with similar energy, which brings us together time and time again. On first meeting, the characters in our life stories may seem familiar. We may know each other from past lives or perhaps we merely recognize the energy of a kindred spirit. But when fate brings old friends back into our lives, there is always a reason. They may act as messengers, reminding us of apart of ourselves we have forgotten to nurture. They might appear to give us a chance to react in a new way to an old situation. They may even bring up unresolved issues so that we may complete them, giving us the chance to move forward on our life path. Whether old friends, previous romances, or once and future partners, their reappearance is more than mere chance. They may never know what they bring into our lives, but the renewed contact is a gift. If this hasn't happened to you, maybe you are meant to initiate contact by seeking out old friends. If old friends come to mind or into your dreams, use their appearance as an excuse to get in touch. If an old song or movie reminds you of them, reach out to share the gift of renewed contact. Wherever you falling the circle of connection and reconnection, be sure to look beyond the surprise of the moment to enjoy the deeper gift that this revelation brings.

Wednesday, July 5, 2006


One of the most beautiful qualities of an intimate relationship is the give and take of energy that occurs between two people. In the best-case scenario, both people share the talking and listening, and the giving and receiving of support,equally. Occasionally, within any relationship, the balance shifts and one person needs to listen more, or give more. Generally, over a long period of time, even this exception will take on a balanced rhythm; we all go through times when we take more and times when we give more. However, there are also relationships in which the balance has always felt one-sided. You may have a friend whom you like, but you have begun to notice that the conversation is always about their life and their problems and never about yours. You may also have a friend who seems to require an inordinate amount of support from you but who is unable or unwilling to give much in return. Over time, these relationships can be draining and unsatisfying. One option is simply to end the relationship, or let it fade out naturally. Another option is to communicate to your friend that you would like to create a more equal balance in which your concerns also get some airtime. They may be taken a back at first, but if they are able to hear you, your friendship will become that much more sincere. They may even thank you for revealing a pattern that is probably sabotaging more than one relationship in their life. A third option is to simply accept the relationship as it is. There are many one-sided relationships that actually work. One example of this is a mentor relationship in which you are learning from someone. Another example is a relationship in which you are helping someone who is sick, disabled, or other wise needy. In these instances, you can simply be grateful that you are able to help and be helped, trusting that the balance of give and take will even out in the big picture of your life.

Tuesday, July 4, 2006


In each stage of life, there are wonderful experiences one can savor and valuable insights one can absorb. Every new decade and, in fact, every new year brings with it wisdom, transformation, and growth, as well as ends and beginnings. Many people, however, believe that there is one age that eclipses the others. They expend energy trying to reach it and, once it has passed,trying to retain it. But wishing to be younger or older is a denial of the joys that have been and the joys yet to be, as well as the beauty of your life in the present. Holding on to one age can make it difficult to appreciate each new milestone you reach. Taking pleasure in the delights of your age, whether you are in your 20s, 40s, 60s, or 80s, can help you see the magnificence and usefulness of the complex seasons of your life. Each new year gifted to us by the universe is replete with exciting and unfamiliar experiences. In our 20s, we can embrace the energy of youth and the learning process, knowing it's okay to not have all the answers. As we move through our third decade, we grow more self-assured as the confusion of our young adulthood melts away. We can honor these years by putting aside our fears of aging and concentrating instead on solidifying our values and enjoying our growing emotional maturity. In our 40s, we become conscious of the wisdom we have attained through life experience and are blessed with the ability to put itto good use. We are not afraid to explore unfamiliar territory or to change. In our 50s, we tend to have successfully navigated our midlife reevaluations and have prioritized our lives. In the decades beyond, we discover a greater sense of freedom than we have ever known and can truly enjoy the memory of all we've seen and done...

Monday, July 3, 2006


Call it not love, for love to heaven is fled
Since sweating lust on earth usurp'd his name;
Under whose simple semblance he hath fed
Upon fresh beauty, blotting it with blame;
Which the hot tyrant stains and soon bereaves,
As caterpillars do the tender leaves.
Love comforteth like sunshine after rain,
But lust's effect is tempest after sun;
Love's gentle spring doth always fresh remain,
Lust's winter comes ere summer half be done;
Love surfeits not, lust like a glutton dies;
Love is all truth, lust full of forged lies.
When this ‘MERE MORTAL’ is loved by his ‘PERFECT BEING’ I am a vessel of Spirit and thereby the bearer of Love and blessings. LOVE IS WHAT I AM, LOVE IS MY TRUE NATURE. Being in love with my ‘PERFECT BEING’ is the expression of Divine Love flowing through me as me. Love knows only itself and as I listen to its Divine voice guiding and leading me through life I am sustained and fulfilled. It doesn't fathom the illusions of hurt, pain and fear. I am created in the LIKENESS and image of Love and thereby endowed with the powers of Love. Everything, Everything, EVERYTHING is an expression of Love. God has created everything that was, is and will be. I have been given the power to do with it that which I will. I am a child of God; I am a child of Love there for I am Love MANIFEST! Now that I am loved by the ‘PERFECT BEING’ all the love that I share with my SOULMATE is returned to me blessed and multiplied because as I allow Divine Love to flow through me to him it mingles with the presence of Divine Love in him and flows back to me. Every act in our relationship becomes an expression of love because my mate reflects back to me that which I put out. I am now secure in LOVE and if my mate reflects back to me something, I don't like then his is reflecting back to me something I need to work on within myself. Like if my mate cheats on me, do I cheat back, do I leave him, do ignore it or do I work it out? Depending on where we are in SPIRIT will depend on my reaction. Since I know who I am in Spirit; as Spirit, I am gonna work this thing out because love won’t allow me to do anything else. Love is more than the "little things" someone does for me. It is coming to a point in life where I connect with the spirit of another in such a way where I care for him and I am concern about him. It is not being controlling or co-dependent but being there for someone regardless of need. When I am aware of myself as Love, I operate in a manner of love where infatuation becomes playful courting. When love becomes this powerful, it transforms the sexual act into a passionate exchange of spiritual energy. As I go through life I understand because of his love that I will have many soul mates. My family, friends and the men we meet are participating as soul mates to experiences and the growth we accumulate through our lives. It is up to me to find my BELOVED by actively experiencing live and enjoying it.

Sunday, July 2, 2006


If you just had a week,
a month,
or even a year to live,
what would you do with the time you had left?
Would you stop living only to waist away,
or would you want to be free from the bonds of your illness
and take life into the palm of your hands to make it the best you can?
If it's your time to go,
would you still hold bitterness against all those that ever done you wrong?
Being the person you truly are,
would you in your heart of hearts find peace and forgiveness?
If it's your time to go,
would I find a smile upon your face everyday?
Or would there I find a frown in it's place?
Connie Sue Ratliff Copyright ©2006 Connie Sue Ratliff

Saturday, July 1, 2006


I have escaped from the land of living and returned to where I belong…I have been working for 10 years in the business world and came to a place that made my previous employment a walk in the park. After being fired for being GAY to working for an ass that doesn’t know the real value of his employees, I sought employment that would put me on the track I desired to be on. I got the call to come for an interview scheduled for December 31st 2004, odd I thought but hey its business and things tend to be unconventional @ times. I got there and no one is there, went back home and left a message that I was there and they phoned and re-arranged another meeting. From that point on one would think that I take heed and the signs that were right in front of my face, but I ignored it and went to work for Colombian Emeralds Int’l A. K. A. Luxury Retail Limited. From the onset I witnessed firings & resignations every week, talk about employee morale. I didn’t understand it then but I know now that the stress I felt was due to my job. I couldn’t wait for 5:30 to leave that place, it was such a mess; I had a weak ass Manager who did nothing to help the situation or me. Everyday I would start my campaign to get out of there, I couldn’t take much more that and everyday I was told that I shouldn’t, I should stay stick it out don’t be someone that can’t stay on a job. To persons on the outside I had a fabulous job as the Assistant to The Chief Financial Officer, but in reality it was anything but fabulous. Dealing with a MAN who had a vicious streak a mile wide - and an ass to match, he was bitching, tantruming or squealing or normally all 3 at once. I have yet to meet anyone who is like him. He has absolutely no self knowledge, depth of character or one empathetic bone in his body. He spends most of his time bullying his assistant quite mercilessly and occasionally turns his attention to me. Isn't it remarkable that leadership is so frequently associated with organizational and individual problems? I know I should feel thankful, but for some reason I feel slightly bitter. When I got the news that I was being let go. I was upset with myself because I didn’t trust my own instincts, I didn’t do what I know I should have and now the universe did it for me. The way it happened was so unprofessional I was thinking WTF, it was a Friday after a training session that he felt the staff needed because we were all FUNCTION IDIOTS. I was summoned to the H. R. and was then told that they was going in a different direction, I was like okay thank you and goodbye, there was shocked and awe that I didn’t get angry, but hey I been there done that and moved on. I am sure that the other persons that was fired along with me felt the same way. When I think about the whole thing it makes sense in a way, because a lesser person would never have put up with the stack of indignities I faced. So after all that I am a better person for it, guess I got the last laugh. I now make sure that I work for a company that can give me the best possible chances at a successful career and if it doesn’t work for then I have process and release. I can’t work in fear and unhappiness; I will never again treat myself like that and will always seek to live while I am alive.