JUS' A LITTLE

JUS' A LITTLE

Lately, I felt that my life is a role

That I stole…

Because surely GOD cannot hate me so,

I done what I should…

Yet I am bored, depressed and mentally exhausted.

Why oh why do I have to be me?

Why can’t I just be like…I don’t know THEM?

It isn’t that I am getting older,

I just give damn about myself.

Initially, I told myself to be patient,

And wait for my day would come.

Secretly, I knew this would be my fate!

Even though I have been here and there

And got mine somewhere in between,

It has dawned on me that I am not whole.

And really, it about the elements coming in and out of my life,

It was about me going in and out of me.

I am losing me trying to find something,

I would get it but try my hardest not to keep it.

I was more focused on what I wanted

That I had forgotten what I needed…

Now when I am free,

I don't know who to be.

I've been cheated,

Used and mentally abused,

I have been to hell and came back.

I guess in a little while,

I will realize that I shouldn’t take life too serious.

And not let things hurt me;

For in reality they are nothing,

But dream experiences…

I could not make myself apart of them,

Play my part in life

And say F&CK it all!

Because I just don’t know what to make out my life right now,

But I know one thing,

I want to be FREE!

I want to be able to enjoy myself,

As I die;

JUS’ A LITTLE…

Each day.

a{GAY}tekeeper{iam} ©