My aim is to
write to inspire, help, and share with you what I’ve learned and experienced.
And, in doing
so, saying that you are not alone.
I’ve also come
to the realization that I cannot always be full of cheer as life is full of ups
and downs. Recently more downs than ups, and right now, this is what I’m kind
of feeling: lacking motivation, bored out of my mind, and feeling like I’m slowly
dying inside, or is it just me?
Feeling numb, tired,
having days where I can sleep forever, and having days where I can’t sleep at all.
The days are beginning to blur into one, and I’m not sure if I can tell what day
it is anymore—“It’s Monday, I think.”
In the
beginning, lockdown was exciting: working from home, drinking endless coffee,
eating and snacking as much as I like at my make-do desk (the bed or sofa),
having the freedom of sitting in my pj’s all day, and, of course, I still do.
What’s not to like about that?
On the rare
occasion, I make myself presentable, which means making an effort to get dressed
into anything other than what’s considered to be loungewear, and this can be seen
as a significant event. For one, I get to feel like a human being again instead
of just being in a constant slumber. But don’t get too excited, I’m only making
myself presentable to go to the Supermarket as the only hobby I have in what we
call “modern times” is to see what next meal I can conjure up, becoming an expert
of what we call fine wines, and before I forget, my all-time favourite new
pastime: walking.
On the upside,
every day feels like a holiday: a working holiday. A working from home holiday.
The benefits of living in the Bahamas is that
we have some breathtaking views and walking routes that relaxes
the mind.
Yes, it does feel
like I’m going crazy. Although, they say it’s okay to talk to yourself. Signs
of madness is when you answer yourself. I don’t think I’m quite there yet, or
am I? Can you tell?
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