This blog entry is for those that feel that I am controlling and feel a need to tell them how to live their lives when that is NOT the case. I've deduced that people LOVE when things are going great and when they are not well...Nonetheless, I don't know why most people I know seem to have this notion that they can say/do whatever they want to me and I can't oppose them in anyway, shape or form. EVERYONE knows when it comes down to it, when they are stranded and no one else is there they can call on me. I wish that I was sorry for being human and I wish they were happy being human.
Once again, they are sitting in an impossibly bad mood. This
one's gone beyond the normal mental stew of fear, depression and resentment,
and has morphed into a nasty physical sensation encompassing their entire body.
The reason for the mood is almost beside the point. To the best of my
knowledge, I have no power to change the conditions which brought it about. Which leaves them where?
Well, as far as I can tell, it leaves them with nothing but
these ugly feelings and NO desire to
be free of them, and the acknowledgement that they have never been able to lift
themselves out of their emotional state. The only thing they have even the
vaguest control over is their attitude which preceded the precipitating, bad
mood-causing event.
That attitude could best be described as a fiercely held
conviction that people are supposed to behave in a manner that meets my
approval. When they don't, I IMMEDIATELY
become the organic repository for the aforementioned bad mood. Now one
might deduce that their only escape from these foul states of mind is to
discard their fiercely held conviction. But to do that, they’d have to lovingly
accept a world that infrequently lives up to my expectations. In other words, I'd
have to be somewhat God-like to tell my family n’ friends how they should live
their lives.
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