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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

FAMILY: ¿DID I ABANDON THEM FOR MY GAY DESTINY?





Mother, father, sister,
brother, aunts, uncles…these words send a low current of guilt through many of
us. They bring memories of our last, dramatic days of living at home and how very
far away life has taken us. When I think of this, I think of my own family, are we close? NO! Do we communicate? Somewhat…I
do know that I have a better understanding of my family and my place within
that. When I left home after being dragged out of the closet, I now wonder: Did I leave because of my destiny or did I
flee?
I can now say the truth it is a little of both. I know that I would
have DIED had I stayed but, I do wonder did I abandon them, or did they
abandon me?
After all, I was the one that ‘changed’, I was the one that was ‘different’, and I was the one that was ‘going against god’s plan for me.’





Family is important, and I know
I kept my distance for a LONG time out
of some deep shame, as if it would simply be better for all concerned if I
stayed away. Or perhaps it was pre-emptive. Who knows for sure, it isn’t an
easy venture trying to figure out who you are while you are trying to be
yourself. Through my journey I collected a few friends here and there, and I
even accept catch phrases like “we choose
our own families”
because maybe it’s true. And then again, I now wonder: was I comforting myself with substitutes?

EVERYTHING FLOWS, NOTHING STANDS STILL...










YOU NEVER STEP IN THE SAME RIVER TWICE…





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