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Monday, September 29, 2008

¿HOW SOON IS TOO SOON?















As many of you may not know, I was planning on getting married in less
than month (
October 25, 2008 to be
precise),
but due to situations
beyond our control we decided to put it on hold. This day I have foreseen for
as long as I can remember and it saddens me that it won’t happen. But as the wedding
officiant said, IT IS NOT MARRIAGE WHICH MAKES A RELATIONSHIP STRONG;
BUT THE STRENGTH OF THE RELATIONSHIP WHICH MAKES IT A MARRIAGE.
Reading
those words made me feel okay about things not happening as planned. However
reading some other words did NOT! I was sitting down @ my pc trying to
figure out what I wanted to blog about today. Not too long after I had this
thought a friend of mine hit me up asking how I was doing and how my hubby was?
Of course I said that we are fine and it is was @ this time that I told him
that wedding was on hold. He expressed his sympathy but also added that maybe
it is for the best because he felt that it was TOO soon for us to be
talking about getting married. So imagine what my thoughts were when he said
that. Nonetheless, I kept my cool because I refuse to allow him OR
anyone to make my relationship a threesome. But I would be telling a lie if I
say that I didn’t find it VERY interesting AND hilariously funny
that this man like SO many other gay men have the nerve to tell others
how to go about their relationships, ESPECIALLY if they don’t have a
stable one of their own. I mean this guy’s idea of
a committed relationship is putting his ass up in
the air for some dick while he hope N’
pray that this is the one for him…Now I don’t know about you, but when it comes
to relationships I take mine VERY
seriously and I do NOT leave LOVE to chance. However I can’t help
but feel sorry him and the many others that are just like him. It kills me to
know that these men CRAVE LOVE and
would rather that I be as they are. Nonetheless, in these trying times, I find
that we cannot afford to live as if live doesn’t mean a thing AND that whatever man comes our way is
just for the time being. Too many of us are all about the supplementary AND NOT the complimentary; and it is KILLING us. @ THE END OF THE DAY, THIS IS MY LIFE & I AM GOING TO LIVE IT THE WAY
MY HEART N’ SOUL DICTATES. MOREOVER, I ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT LOVE IS GREAT &
SHARING THAT WITH JUST ONE MAN IS PERFECT FOR ME. I GUESS IN THE REALITY OF THINGS
I CAN’T BE THAT HARD ON HIM FOR THINKING THE WAY HE DOES, AFTER ALL NOT BEING THE
ONE THAT I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH IS A DIFFICULT PILL TO SWALLOW…¿HOW
SOON IS TOO SOON YOU MAKE ASK? IT ISN’T SOON ENOUGH FOR ME…I CAN’T WAIT TO
STAND IN FRONT THAT ALTER & SAY I DO IN FRONT OF GOD, MAN & THE
ELEMENTS…THIS MOMENT WON’T BE TOO SOON FOR ME.


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