So the other night my friends had a surprise party for me and it was wonderful. I got to sit and reflect on the last 10 years of my life AND came to some startling realizations about life and the people in it. Now NOTHING was more amazing to me than coming to my INCONVIENIENT TRUTH about GAY MEN when a friend of mine came to me and asked me about another guy @ the party. Immediately something went off in my mind, shame came over me because here was the living proof that the GAY MAN thinks about getting his rocks off. Depending on one’s perspective, a single GAY MALE who actually sees this chase through to the bedroom OR anywhere they can get 5 minutes alone with each other is considered to be the NORM with the GAY community. Now I get it that he is SINGE and is FREE to MINGLE, but that does NOT mean he should feel like he is king of the world or something AU CONTRAIRE!
The flattering element that comes from MAKING THE KILL is what is destroying OUR community in my opinion. Moreover, the STRANGE thing about this situation is that I will be the one that is looked @ as an anomaly AND anti-gay. MY QUESTION TO ALL GAY MEN IS WHY ARE WE SO HARD UP FOR THAT PIECE OF ASS/D!CK THAT WE FORGET OUR TRUE PURPOSE? Moreover, the SAD thing is that everyone is pointing the finger @ everyone else which only results in everyone being a part of the problem and NOT the solution. This proves that we are NOT truthful with each other, for it is MY belief that most if NOT all of us want this life, but we do not know how to get off the ride. OUR priorities are mixed up AND there is NO relief in sight. OUR integrity AND authenticity do NOT exist and it seems as if we are NOT concerned either. Nonetheless, I cannot say that I blame them because when you have a LOW self-esteem OR it is in the pants of some random man it does NOT matter anyways.
FOR THE LIFE OF ME, I CANNOT IMAGINE HOW WE BECAME PRISONERS IN OUR OWN WORLD. WE ARE NOT OPEN & HONEST ABOUT WHO WE ARE AS MEN & WE EAT, SLEEP N’ DRINK THIS POTION EVERYDAY OF OUR LIVES. MORE & MORE GAY MEN ARE CHOOSING SEX OVER SUBSTANCE & THIS HAS DIRE EFFECTS IN MORE WAYS THAN I CAN COUNT. DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF US, WHEN THE SMOKE CLEARS & THEY CALL THE LAST CALL @ THE BAR WHAT ARE YOU SAYING ABOUT YOURSELF WHEN TAKE ON ANOTHER JUST TO PASS TIME? THIS NEGATIVE CYCLE OF GAY MEN WHO JUST WANT SEX OVER RELATIONSHIPS WILL NEVER GET WHAT THEY WANT UNTIL THEY GIVE THEMSELVES WHAT THEY REALLY NEED. THE INCONVENIENT TRUTH IS THAT EVERY GAY MAN NEEDS TO MENTALLY, PHYSICALLY & SPIRITUALLY CLEANSE HIMSELF & TAKE HIS PLACE IN THIS WORLD & GET OUR COMMUNITY WHERE IT OUGHT TO BE…SO TELL ME MEN ARE YOU TOO HORNY TO TRY?